I'm not happy :/

Now that everyone supports you, you have gotten cocky with the whole thing. You think everyone is going to be comfortable with you pulling a Nikole C. with your boyfriend in front of them. Not everyone views that as a normal thing. I guess you feel invincible.

I am invisble right now. Only two of my friends care about me right now. I know it. They are all into their lives and don't bother to invite me into them. I am not invited to hang out at houses, meet boyfriends, go to the movies, go on jogs because it's all last minute. Thanks so much for excluding me for that reason. I am beginning to hate you all. You want me to be happy well I'd appreciate being talked, and to being told things. But no you want me to magically get better and say "OH LETS HANG OUT" when I put on that front you shoot me down because you are busy.

What do you want from me. You don't want to hear all my depressing stuff but when I talk about something happy you ignore it like it's something normal for me. You guys probably talk about me an how big of a downer I am that is probably why you both are never are on tumblr. Secrets don't make friends tell me the truth. Don't I deserve at least that that?

Man and woman up. I am dead sick of your crap.

Everything isn't about me yet I feel like he doesn;t want me there for support. Like he doesn't know how many nights I have thought about the fact that I am supporting him with this. He was everyone else supporting him and their support seems to mean so much more to him than mine.


I tried to change my outlook but just like I said you two aren't there and when you are I don't sense you having a real interest in what I am saying. I want to hear about you too because I know talk about myself way too much then when you do I feel like I am not helping you.


Please don't be in to weed. It's not like I can judge you for it because I am too close with to not be able to understand. I just don;t want you into that kind of stuff. I don't want to be falling off the same page we were on.

I'm useless aren't I. What am I doing here?